management though patience

Embrace patience like a passionate hug from you
fingertips stroking it like feathers touching your body

Want it with the same urgency to feel your lips
Experience their softness, taste your sweetness,
Ignite the fire that is laying low waiting to explode

Hand in hand I walk with it
Like it’s you and I on a beach in Jamaica
Providing us heat like the sun rays beaming down
the energy flowing between you and me
Drawing us together slowly like metal to a magnet

The desire in me grows with every conversation
But I grab hold on to patience and use my imagination
the visual I form in my head, is oh so clear
I feel u on my fingers and taste your sweet necture on my tongue
Hearing the moan that escapes from deep down inside,
Makes it seem more real than just my thoughts running wild

Blogging

the blogs felt to me more like an assignment rather than me doing it for fun or actually expressing how i felt about the class assignments and lectures. thinking that i was going to hand this into the professor at the end of the term made me write certain things that sounded nice and educated than my actual brashness and feelings toward certain things that is me. i do think that it does help to learn the material because you do have to reread slides to make sure that you know what you are talking about so that was good within itself. i think the blogs should be kept for next semester. also i think that it didnt really help me to meet other people because i commented on people just for the sake of commenting because it was a part of the assignment. it was a good thing that we could so easily manage 20% our grade by just doing the blogs and it shows who was really listening in class because just managing the blog took a bit of effort because you either forgot or didnt know what to write to other people. nonetheless it is a great part of the class and different from any other class that i have taken in my career as a student...

Dominance, just without the whips and chains and leather boots...for now

alright so we took a test that tells us what kind of a leader that we are and i was dominant with a high influence. i would say that it portrays me very well but i would not change myself to any other type. i would say that i give people a chance to do the things that they want but people dont do things fast enough so i end up taking over whatever task is being given. i kind of dislike it because everyone always comes to me when they have a problem or a question and i dont like to answer other peoples questions all the time. i only do it because i have to. i think that if i had to i could become another type but it would probably be very close, something like an influential person with strong dominance hahaha i think that the test wouldnt help me understand where a person is coming from because if it comes to me having to understand then that means there was a problem and whether or not i understand doesnt matter, the person is going to have to change instead of me accepting who they are. thats like saying a serial killer killed my family but we found out that he has a mental problem...NO! it doesnt excuse what he did just because i know why he was the way he was. i dont think it would help in personal interactions because people have to change the way they do things for certain enviroments but it was cool to know what certain people were....

Visions? Hopes? Dreams may become a reality...

ok so I would love to win the lotto hahaha but since that can be a vision *hopefully it still happens* i guess I'm going to have to tell you about some of the aspirations that I have...

The first thing that I would love to do is start my own sneaker store. I love sneakers. Ive always had a thing for them since I had my first pair of Jays *Jordans* when i was about 6. My first pair were the French Blue and White 12s. I want to own my own store because im not really one for having people tell me what to do and hopefully im successful in what i do. first thing i need to do is get a credit card so i can have some credit to be able to take out a loan from a bank so i can start everything up.

Another thing i would love to do is publish a book. most likely it would be a play because novels are really hard to write *i tried it* haha but ive always liked to write and it would be like a dream come true if i can actually write one and have it published. ive had poetry published but i want to have a real work published. just have to find the time and the inspiration to start it.

The last thing is a reach but would be great if i can make it happen. i would die from happiness if i can become a professional lacrosse player. i played in high school and was pretty good and fell in love with the game instantly. i tried out for the Empire States one year and made it but now i dont have the time to practice or anyone to practice with for that matter. but maybe, just maybe i can play for a league when i get older and possibly get scouted to play for the pros.

who knows with a little hard work, determination and ambition visions become dreams....

Reach for the stars so if you fall you land on a cloud.

Any Objections?

sigh...ok, once again we had a class assignment and once again it was entertaining. this class we had to format a test and come to a 100 percent consensus on what we wanted. easily said than done. there were a few people who jumped to take control and it obviously wasnt going to work. what i did was let everyone else try to make the decisions and if the proposals sounded ok then i would vote for it but nothing was actually getting through to people. after waiting for someone to start being a leader someone...i think his name is albert stepped up and sort of grasped peoples attention. he was doing an ok job but he wasnt really getting his point across or controlling the class the way a leader is suposed to. so i changed my way of thinking and became more assertive (compete to win) and in the end as a class we decided on some real major issues and solved them. the reason i took "albert's" position is because i felt that i could do a better job than he was and he had no problem letting me try to talk to the class. given that i know how heated people got at the situation and how defensive and rude people became i still dont think i would change the way things were done. the outcome that we got i would say was a pretty good one and i honestly enjoyed hearing people bicker about their grades because it shows how people only care about themselves. its the american way i guess. individualism showed its ugly side during that class and i had fun watching until it was almost time to come up with our final decision and i realized that no progress was really made. all in all im happy with our decision..any objections? = p

Egg-selent planning?

well we had to create a stucture to protect our egg...that was the assignment. how hard could it get right? well my group didnt think that it was that hard to do and to succeed at so we spent very little time planning the assignment out. to be honest we didnt really think much through. there was pretty much a general consensus. we had an artist and we let her draw the picture. i trusted her judgement because artists think more abstractly than other people and i didnt really getr what she was talking about. i trusted in the rest of my group with the decision that they made. there was no real leader of the group, we all did our part. we didnt split up tasks or anything like that. personally im not one for planning. im a quick thinker and it has always worked out for me the best that way. well needless to say my groups device protected the egg. we were also the first person to drop the egg. basically we skipped all of step 3, did a part of step 2 because we knew we had a deadline, didnt really do step 4 because we only had one idea and went with it, and of course did step 5. HHUUUUEEEEVVVOOOOO!!!!!!!

Dense Manager

ok so i have this manager at my job that is very stern and strict. one could say that he is authoritarian. it is his way or the highway. this is a personal problem because i dont like it when people are always on my back like im a child. it makes me feel incopetent and useless when in reality i am a lucrative associate to the company. thing is that i have never had to be told to do something more than once since i was a child and that is how i work but he doesnt understand that and doesnt grasp the concept that even though he is the manager i am also capable of doing my job without 24/7 surveillance.